Hopelessly worn at seventeen.

My fellow readers, “And this is the only immortality you and I may share, my Lolita.” those were H.H last words. Everyone has spoken their final words and now, it's my turn to do it. I loved it, every piece of it. I loved it very much. The book has taken an amazing twist and so did the blog. Remember how we started talking about Lolita? Here I am now and there's no one else I would rather speak about other than Humbert Humbert. A twist indeed, right? If you wanna read the book stop right now and close this blog, this might be an extreme spoiler. If you’re still reading means you know it too. All this time I thought Humbert was stupid and silly for loving Lolita, but he knew everything. He was aware that Lolita was just a nymphet, one he’ll never forget, but just a nymphet. I love how right at the end he starts telling Lolita to be loyal, to be happy and to live the life she deserves. He just wants her happiness and that my fellow readers, it’s real love for me. He would rather go to jail and be on his own for her happiness, for her own farytale ending. Well, it’s not a complete fairytale ending for Lolita, but she’s happy and that’s more than enough for Humbert. My recommendation for every reader is DON’T WATCH THE MOVIE FIRST! That was my big mistake, a huge mistake. The book became boring and long at some point just because I knew how it would all end. But the last part, the last page… Right when he says his final words to Lolita, it killed me. He loved her, no matter what. He loved her as a father, he loved her as a lover, he just loved her. Just like he said right from the start “light of my life, fire of my loins”. Quilty will never forget her. Humbert will never forget her. Dick will never forget her. Vladimir will never forget her. But most importantly, I will never forget you Lo. Lee. Ta.

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Est-ce que tu ne m'aimes plus, ma Carmen?

Lolita is gone. Nowhere to be seen, Humbert looks for her like crazy. He misses her terribly and everywhere he goes or looks he sees Lolita. Some years passed and he never quite gives up. I believe that Lolita has taken complete control on Humbert’s life. Even if he’s not saying her name out loud, he repeats it in his mind 24/7. I don’t know where Lolita is, or we’ll she’ll be. The thing is Humbert has stopped his life and can’t go on without her. I guess he’s the one that can actually use the phrase “I can’t live without you” and actually mean it. I always thought this was stupid and it just makes me sad that Humbert, a talented man, is wasting his life on a little girl who’s probably having fun with random guys in bed. Lolita must be living the life she always wanted. A free life, shouldn’t Humbert be happy for her? 

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My own ultraviolet darling.

My fellow readers, I have to admit I was getting tired of Humbert and Lolita on my last post. But now that feeling is gone, the book had a turn now. An unexpected turn in which Lolita is the one taking over. She decided she wanted to quit her school and start the adventure all over again, but this time she would choose every destination. Humbert of course accepted. The situation has now changed, Lolita has realized that she can control the situation and she did it, Lolita has a new puppy and that's Humbert. She's just smart and amazing, she's getting older and she has changed. She's a manipulative girl and knows exactly what to do to get whatever she wants. Humbert might think he's still in control, but that's just him lying and believing his own lies. There's nothing like Lolita's moves to control him, he's completely in love with her and he'll do whatever  to please her. Lolita's finally using that in her favor.

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Please, leave me alone, will you?

My fellow readers, as far as I’m going through the book I’ve founded myself fearing that Humbert and Lolita’s life is no longer an adventure as it all started and it’s getting a bit monotonous. I'd hate to feel bored about them or not like them as much as I used to while I was reading the first chapers. They have finally reached a point where they stopped travelling and found a house to stay and live as a father and a daughter. Lolita is no longer that little girl I remember, that joyful and skillful young lady. Lolita has become a bit annoying and irritating. But she’s not the problem here; Humbert is an obsessive pig that has caused this annoying behavior on Lolita. I believe the real problem behind Lolita’s life is Humbert and I don’t think she really sees it. I believe that Lolita and Humbert’s future is impossible and I’m sure it will terrible. I hate Humbert, I went from liking him and right now I’m just tired of his sick obsession. I wished he could just stop saying the word nymphet and obsessing over Lolita. All I want is Lolita's freedom, that's all I really want right now. I want to know how would she act if things where different. If her mom was alive and she was a better person.

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We are lovers, aren't we?

My fellow readers, could it be possible that Humbert’s obsession has become one of mine? I’ve been so obsessed with the book that I’ve even met Lolita and Humbert in my dreams. It was amazing, without a doubt. Lolita! Oh Lolita! Ever since she left to Camp Q she’s been missing. I’ve missed her for the last 7 first chapters I started with. Humbert and Charlotte or as I should call them now, The Humberts were the main attention. Humbert is incredibly stupid sometimes, but that’s what they say about love… it makes you stupid. He agreed to marry Lolita’s mother to be closer to Lolita, I know, a little too much for me. But I understand him, everything was so fast and losing Lolita was way worse than marrying the big Haze woman. I adored how he observed Charlotte and how he compared every move with Lolita’s moves. I must say Humbert is a stupid man, a crazy man, but he is in love and that’s why I understand him. I like that he’s so aficionate and proposed.  But everything falls when Charlotte finds his journal. Now I must say he’s a lucky man, I don’t know how and I don’t know why, but his plan turned more than better with the big Haze out of the picture. 
I must admit I was a bit angry at Humbert, for acting so normal after Charlotte died. But I guess he never cared at all. Lolita on the other hand was part of these chapters right in the final moments. But I've been able to answer my previous questions, Lolita isn't innocent at all. She's special without any doubt. She keeps playing around with Humbert’s feelings and emotions, she changed completely. It’s funny sometimes but it bothers me her childish behavior, but then I wake up and realize: God! She’s a child! And I’m thinking like this because Humbert has made me think of Lolita as she’s a woman. I feel confused because sometimes I want myself wanting this relationship between Humbert and Lolita and I feel bad for him for the way Lolita’s playing around. It’s amazing how I started wanting to talk and to get to know Lolita as if I was her friend, but right now I find myself trying to understand Humbert more than Lolita. Anyways, Lolita has changed. She’s no longer that little nymphet for me, she’s showing me her true colors right now and I’m still arguing with myself If I like them or not.

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Light of my life, fire of my loins.

My fellow readers, I am excited to tell you that I’ve finally started reading this marvelous novel. To start off posting I started with chapters 1-8 of the book. Unfortunately Lolita wasn’t there yet, she’s mentioned numerous times but all we can observe is Humbert’s massive obsession and his own personal experience. These few chapters brought some questions to my mind, endless questions. Humbert tells the story about how Lolita wasn’t the first young girl he met and how he called them nymphets. He tells us how he observed the girls in the playground which seems quite terrific even for me, using the quote “Let them play around me forever. Never grow up”. But there’s something about Humbert that just doesn’t fit quite right, a certain “Je ne sais pas”, as he would say. For some of you I’m sure he’ll already be a sick man by now, but I won’t judge him. I think there’s more to know about Humbert than just this background. While I was reading Humbert’s story I couldn’t stop asking myself: Why? Of all the nymphets he mentions, why Lolita? Why was Lolita the one? In a strange way I love how he gets when he speaks of Lolita, he gets jumpy and nervous. I must admit I’m excited and I can’t wait till’ I meet Lolita too. I just have to know why? I must get to understand how Humbert could revive his adolescent lover 20 years later with the wonderful... Beautiful Dolores? 

After few chapters, I’ve met Lolita and she’s not what I expected her to be. Lolita seems to be quite simple and funny. I like how she doesn’t even care about the smallest thing. Lolita just wants to have fun all the time, no matter what. I thought she would’ve been a little more seductive and provocative. But I see her as an innocent girl; I think she doesn’t even imagine what’s going on inside Humbert’s mind. She’s just playing around and being herself. Still, at the last chapter before she leaves to camp she kisses Humbert, was she playing silly all this time? Or is it just something she did out of nowhere? Related to Humbert, I’m in love with his passion. I’m in love with every single word he says when he talks about Lolita. I’ve never heard anything quite like it, but this illusion ends right up when he refers to her as a “Nymphet” and I automatically remember how old is him. I’m eager to see what happens next, I want to know Lolita itself, the beautiful nymphet Humbert talks about. I think in these chapters I’ve met Lo so far. 

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Lo. Lee. Ta.

My fellow readers, welcome to Lolita's mind. My name is Ana Galeano, but I like to be called Ruby Sparks. In this first entry I'd like to tell you about what you'll be reading for the next few weeks. Together, we’ll be inside Lolita’s mind and her thoughts throughout the fantastic novel by Vladimir Nabokov called “Lolita”. Published for the first time in 1955. I’ll read and post as if I’m Lolita itself, as I’m if Lolita’s best friend and I know her deepest, darkest secrets. I expect that Lolita will be a rebel a kid; she’ll live for love and live her life as every moment might be her last. I have high expectations for my dear Lolita and I’m 100% sure that I’ll like her ever more than I think. I won’t judge her, I’ll try to understand every single decision and step she makes.

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